prosperous in battle

nothing is what i expected. i know i’m nothing they expected. nothing is what i want. i’m wondering if it’s a deeper issues. do i really hate people this much? i tell myself it is stress, but i know it’s deeper. i know it will only get worse. i know i’ve fucked up in so many ways. not end of the world kind of fuck ups. just fuck ups that make me cry. i’m trying. i tell myself after the weekend all will be better, all will be perfect. but it never is. isn’t the weekend like the rain? aren’t things suppose to be brightest after it? things only seem to get worse after the rain. i tell myself i’m doing it for the right reasons, but i think that’s a lie. it’s causing me to doubt the things i wanted. i don’t think it was enough change, i think it was me trying to work old routines into my life. i think i was used. i think i’m only here for one reason and i don’t want to do, it’s not in me.  i spend free moments day dreaming about things that aren’t going to happen. about places i will not go. 

i tell myself to stay. 

to fight. 

but all i want to do is flight. 

flight

is the only way. 

bitchville:

Avengers/Winnie the Pooh mashup illustrations by C.P. Wilson III.

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“…thanks, dads,”

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Derek and his wife are in a plane crash, he might be dead.

Amelia is having a brainless baby.

Worst week ever for the Shepherd family.  

Seriously, Sunday dinner is going to be a downer. 

Shonda, sometimes I don’t understand you. 

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Instagram-ing….

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emergingsara:

Guys, I made this tonight and I nearly died it was so good.

Chocolate Avocado Banana Pudding [serves 2-4]

• 2 avocados, ripe
• 2 medium bananas, ripe
• 6-8T unsweetened cocoa powder
• 1t vanilla extract
• 1t cinnamon
• 1.5 scoops Raw protein powder [opt]

1. In a food processor, combine the avocado + banana and process until smooth.  Scrape down the sides of bowl as necessary.
2. Add the cocoa powder, vanilla, cinnamon, and protein powder [if using].  Process again until smooth. 
3. Refrigerate until ready to serve and add any topping you like.
4. Store in a sealed container and eat within 2-3 days.

This looks soooo good. I want it in my belly!